It sure has been awhile!!

I know it seems like it has been forever since I did a post. It was really hard for me to talk about anything but the depo because it seemed like it was ruling the roost here at my place with my emotions and all. I have been off of the Depo now for about 6 weeks HOOOORRAAAYY!! My horomones seem like they are back to normal but my cycles are all sorts of SCREWED UP! Im really excited to start ttc as I am just in my pre-ttc phase. I think its SUPER important to get your body in gear for another little one especially if your trying within or just after a year after your other children were born. It does take a year for your body to recover after all. Im trying to keep a positive outlook on this whole thing but I keep thinking that this road to second baby is going to be a tough one!! As far as Pre-Ttc goes, I am taking my vitamins regularly (folic acid, one a day womens, and omega 3 fish oil) which ladies and gents, it is SOOOOOOOOO important to make sure you are at your healthiest before concieving because your chances of healthy sperm/egg quality multiply GREATLY when you are watching what you eat as well as taking those vits!! But of course you already know that!

Youtube-

If you have been following me on youtube than you know that im kind of on the outs with people. Which also means that my subs havent been watching my vids. I really dont understand why it is ok for the people with thousands of views on their vids to have such strong opinions but take me for example (someone with normally 3-400 views) its totally shocking to people!! Omg , i have an opinion!SHOOT ME! I really enjoy making videos, talking with people, giving/getting advice but its really catty out there!! I didnt think or realize how cliquey the internet could be. give me a break! But enough with my rant because it pisses me of the more i think about it!! lol

I have been uploading so much lately but that is becase I want to get to those vids before I move in with my mother in law because Im not sure how it will be in terms of video making!!

Meg Pie!

-My little Megan is doing wonderfully and growing so much everyday!! I just can't believe how much time has been since she has been born and its even more astonishing to me when I think about when I found out I was pregnant with her!! I have been getting very teary lately when I see old footage from when she was in the hospital!!I feel like at this rate, she'll be 16 tommorow. haha.

She has been pulling herself up on things, crawling, and getting into just about anything she can try to put iin her mouth!! But of course, we babyproof so we keep it safe!! She is just such a joy!! I can tell she has so much energy and she is soo enthusiastic about life it just shows on her face when she smiles!! I look forward to doing a full update on her on my youtube. (mandashow20 for those who dont know my yt name)!!

Thanks for reading my post!! Ill update you soon on how things are going =)

Medication?

Hey followers =) So, i called my doctor yesterday and told her how i was feeling and that things were going terribly wrong with me and i think it is the shot. well, she wants to start me on a medication to get me through the next 6 weeks. im really scared because im not sure medication is going to be the right thing. maybe because i trusted the doctor who put me on depo and he screwed up my life for awhile. i dont know what to think. well, medication and she wants me to see a therapist. I dont know what to say other than PLEASE do NOT ever go on the depo! I kknow the shot agrees with some people but it ruined my existance for however long its going to take to leave my bbody!


Anyway, megan is doing great. She makes my day a million times better. i will do an update on her probably tommorow when i have more time on here =) Thanks to the few people on here who read my posts. I really appreciate how kind you are!! Please pray for me, i really need it.

Please be O-V-E-R soon!

Hey followers!! Lately it has been sooo crazy here at my place. Well, i'm not sure its the place or just me. The depo shot i feel like is making my crazy and i seriously HATE it! I feel sad and out of place ALL THE TIME NOW! i cant seem to resume my regular activities and my doctor doesnt want me to pursue anything until the shot is done. i got it april 13th and im half way through basicaly. i just need support right now, im soo off track. No, i dont need anyone telling me their miserable experience on the shot, i just need support. plain old support. I feel like a terrible mother, a terrible person, and i feel like i cant do the things i used to. i guess i just need this damn thing to go away. I had depression before i got on the shot but it was manageable and its much worse now. im sure the shot hasnt made things better. well, im sorry for ranting and complaining. This is why i havent done vlogs or anything, im not up to it. Hopefully ill be better soon. im just trying to get by day to day. PS. it also makes me feel pregnnat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! agh! God help me.

New Blog, New Start

Hey Everyone! So, I am soo excited about doing my very own BLOGGER!!! Thank you to everyone who is following me, it means a lot to me =) As most of you know, I have also created a new YOUTUBE account as well. http://www.youtube.com/user/LifeOf20SomethingMom Unfortunatly, I am deleting my old youtube but I am giving myself a fresh face and a fresh start! I hope you will be here for the ride. My blog is about honesty and showing you what it's really like to be a parent and raise a child but not just that,its also about my life and things that I'm doing as well. I am forwarning you, I'm a bit dramatic but hey, thats me haha...

If you have any questions don't hesitate to ask. Nothing too crazy like "Where do you live?" though kay?

I have a facebook as well if youd like to add me:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001012597708

This is the only facebook that I will add people on because I have both a private and a non private face book =)

Again, thanks guys soo much and I look forward to sharing my experiences with you!!

Mommy Mandy